Tears from a Rose: Prolouge
By: Shiraishi
Mayumi
Spoilers: All of Vol 4 and the
end of the series
Shiraishi: Ugyuu… I’m writing my first yaoi
ficcie….
All Weiß: @_@;;; *flee*
Shiraishi: *facevault* Omae-tachi…
Omi: *weakly*
A... ano… Shira-san… who exactly are you gonna…. well, you know…?
Shiraishi: *grins*
Sore wa…. himitsu desu!
All: *groan*
Yohji: *praying*
Please don’t be me, please don’t be me…
Shiraishi: If it’s not
you, you’ll be next! ;p
Ken: …..
Shiraishi: And you,
too, Ken-san!
Ken: Why me? ;_;
Why me? Why now? After
all that time I spent, all my work… was it for nothing? Is this my point in
life? To live in pain? Kami-sama, do you really hate me this much? I’ve spent
so long working for this… for her… and now she’s gone.
The only other person
I’ve ever really felt compassion towards is a member of my own group. I know I
should hate him. He’s the son of the man who nearly killed my sister. But for
some reason, I can’t. Maybe it was the look on his face when he found out who
he was. Disgust. And fear. Complete and total fear. He was so afraid that I’d hate
him. I never did.
I… words aren’t
enough. After what’s happened over the last couple days, I’m not even sure of
myself anymore. Aya-kun… he… I’m sorry. I don’t mean to cry. It’s just that…
the letter he left… why? Why did this happen to me? Haven’t I paid for my sins
for long enough? My parents didn’t want me. The one man who did died. Oka was
killed because of me. Now Aya…
He ran himself through
with his own blade. We found his body next to my bed, in my room. In his hands
he clutched the letter… that letter… his words will haunt me the rest of my
life. There’s a bloodstain in the upper left hand corner of it, from his hand.
His only flaw. Other than that, the cut was clean. The only blood that left him
soaked into his always black cloak. But I… I know I can never sleep in that
room again.
I still remember
walking into my room and seeing his body… his lifeless form, chest as red as
his hair, spread out half on my bed, half on the floor, clutching a bloody
sword in one hand, and a white note in the other. White. A perfect contrast to
his own blackness.
I screamed. I remember
falling to the floor, clutching at my face, eyes wide as the tears fell in
silent, salty streams down my face. I vaguely remember Ken and Yohji showing
up. I think they were the ones that called the ambulance. It was a futile
effort. We all knew that he’d be thorough. Thorough to the end. Never slipped
up. That was Aya-kun for you.
Even now, I can’t walk
into that room. All I can see is his body, his blood…
I’ve been staying at a
friend of mine from school’s house. I didn’t tell them how, just said someone
close to me passed away and I needed to stay somewhere. Passed away. Just a
nice term for death. We humans to have a tendency to sugarcoat reality. We like
to twist it into things that suit us best. One of our many flaws.
That note… its words
will haunt me for all the days I live. Yohji and Ken don’t talk to me about it.
I’m not even sure if they read it. It was addressed directly to me. They
probably didn’t. If they had, they might not’ve given it to me at all.
Eternally
yours,
Fujimia Ran